I often times wash my hands before I urinate so I don't get my penis dirty.

Posted on April 5, 2006 in Life Log | Link

Since I was a little kid I was extremely fascinated by the intricate design, functionality, and application of the computer. In 1995 I enrolled in a technology oriented K-12 school in which technology was used as a tool to enhance learning. People that knew me at this time can attest to the fact that I was extremely focused on the implementation and integration of technology and ultimately with, as I can clearly see now, life.

Subsequently I continued to improve my technology skills by attending the Art Institute of Dallas in 2000. Again, my fascination for technology and knowledge of its utilization was enhanced. During my initial months at The Art Institute of Dallas, I fortunately was given the opportunity to work in an Ad Agency as an intern. The agency quickly noticed the potential of my business success – which essentially at the time was a passion for the utilization of technology within Reality – and moved me up the responsibility latter within their organization to Director of Internet Marketing Services upon completion of my associates’ degree in 2002.

I continued to work for the agency through the recontextualization experience, yet at the end of 2003 and beginning of 2004 I had lost all motivation for increasing my knowledge of technology. I found that my inner creative and artistic talents were somewhat being manipulated for the success and ultimately the profits of the company. Soon thereafter, I decided that I wanted to go back to school so I dropped the agency position and started to work freelance with my own clients (including my old agency), my mother's projects, my own, etc. Also in 03-04 I started to capture and log information about Enlightenment and the recontextualization as expressed through full circle awareness as the Mind wrapped around realization.

It was not until the beginning of 2005 that I realized I wanted to study, from an academic perspective, this thing we call life including: consciousness, the mind, reality, God, etc. So at the end of 2005 I enrolled at The University of Texas at Dallas majoring in psychology and minoring in child development, which was later changed to neuroscience.

I am currently at UTD studying neurophysiology with regards to psychological topics. What I have found is the passion and inner motivation that was once with technology is now focused on neuroscience and psychology. What I find mind-boggling and most phenomenal is the structure and processes in which the body operates. I thought technology was advanced until I started studying the neuronal networks of the human body, which makes technology look elementary. Nevertheless, my focus and energy have been directed to neuropsychology and probably will continue to do so through graduate school.

Posted on February 28, 2006 in Life Log, Note To Self | Link

In additional to fading memory, the ability to remember names, dates, facts, historical figures, numbers, etc. has diminished. It is accurate to postulate that a consequence of peace has resulted from detachment of content. To release the bonds of perception within the Mind is to truly liberate the Mind from the Ego’s vanities. In other words the Mind has depolarized its primary function from that which is observes.

Posted on September 27, 2005 in Life Log | Link

It seems to me that the less attachment the Mind has on content (perception), the memory banks of the Mind begin to fade. The illusion of past and future “events” come into full alignment with the actuality of the all-encompassing present moment. In an essence what “has” happened and what “will” happen has merged into an in-the-moment realization.

Note to Self: it has become somewhat difficult to operate and communicate in society especially in the realm of academics. The requirement needed to excel in the traditional norm of intelligence i.e. tests, has become challenging to store and recall content. The above could be considered for in depth research in regards to a thesis.

Posted on September 24, 2005 in Life Log, Note To Self | Link

For those of you that know me personally, I understand if you don’t want to drive with me anymore. I have always been a good driver, cat woman like reflexes, ohh yes the entire enchilada was always at my disposal. However, as of late, I have been “out of my body” so to speak while driving. Yes, this is not very safe but I believe guidance protects me while I drive, there is a tight grip of faith in place currently.

The significance of this experience is I have witnessed the body and Mind being positioned on “autopilot” as the awareness from Source sets in. While the Mind is active, the energy from the Heavens can manifest. This is also true while doing certain exercises such as running or riding a bike. This “method” of balance between the Mind and the Soul/Higher Spirit is often called meditation.

Posted on September 6, 2005 in Life Log | Link

I can’t wait to be a college professor, I think my first assignment will be thusly.

Use the following words as a guideline to writing a paper about: man’s perception of God, the evolution of the mind, and their affects on human history.

Reality
Anthropomorphism
Epistemology
Consciousness (The Totality of)

Ready set go.

Posted on September 4, 2005 in Life Log | Link

It is an exquisite sensation to feel multiple streams of awareness simultaneously. By integrating knowledge that is infinitely present within the all-encompassing-web-of-consciousness, the Mind can assimilate vast amounts of information beyond the traditional “learning” curve.

Currently there is a part of my awareness that is observing another part of awareness as it puts it all together. And as each stream of awareness amalgamates there is a feeling nature of understanding beyond the mind, primarily focused on is-ness, yet, the Mind is an integral part in this process.

Posted on August 19, 2005 in Life Log | Link

This morning, while I was playing the flute of meditation, I received a lot of clarity from guidance. Clarity primarily about expanding awareness; it came to me in a simple, sexy fashion that to expand the current awareness that is present within my body, I must first integrate the this level for that will open the doors to “higher” levels.

I think I want to write a book about Love. Last night in my thoughts I danced with the potentiality of actually creating such a piece, I believe the title was: Love – Discover The Hidden Nature. Chapter subjects (Table of Content) are as follows:

History of Love
Human Interpretation (Male and Female)
Love in Society
Qualities of Love
Religious Love
Scientific Analysis
Love Theories
The Loving Mind
Compassion
Phases of Love
The Energy of Love
The Final Epiphany

If anyone has any further insight to this project you know how to contact me.

Posted on August 9, 2005 in Life Log | Link

"Your muscles feel spongy," she stated. "Thank you, I drink a lot of water," I replied.

Posted on July 12, 2005 in Life Log | Link

Been having some visions lately, I seem to be peeking into the future of potentiality and seeing soon-to-be manifested pieces of expression. Follow me while I take you on a journey into the nonvisible realm of the infinite unmanifest of the supreme:

I will form a research institute that will create a series of out-of-this-world theorems and radical discoveries in the areas of science with special emphasis in physics, consciousness, perception, the human body, energy, and life.

This blog shall mark my words for this day I intend on writing a series of books, lectures, seminars/workshops, that will reveal a new paradigm of Reality which will rock this world undoubtedly. Let it be known that there will be a variety of creative products (such as this blog you are reading now) that will be published and presented to the world for the purpose of learning and self-improvement.

There will be a series of books I can see that clearly. I keep seeing the title “The Physics of God” in which my team and I create two different versions: an academic version that includes the mathematical data to support our awareness of truth, and a standard version that essentially summarizes the concepts in easy to understand analogies and metaphors.

I also see another book, I think it is an autobiography, not your traditional date/event transcribed piece but rather an explanation of my radical spiritual transformation where the Ego suddenly died and awareness of existence became present within a split second’s time.

I see seminars being held at large convention centers where people gather from every religion to learn about love, compassion, life, existence, etc. I can see technology is an important aspect but only a tool for presentation. Everything is free, all supported by donations.

I can also see a company, founded by myself but not run by me, is responsible for the marketing, publishing, organization, etc. of the research institutes’ projects. The institute is a non-profit organization and is highly looked up upon in the scientific world.

Posted on July 3, 2005 in Life Log | Link

So I have decided to go back to school, it is quite enjoyable actually. Since I have been in corporate working for clients and supporting myself financially for the past five years, I have molded into a very proficient student. The experiences I have gained from working in an agency and freelance has provided new skills that make a super student such as: integrity, honesty, respect, problem solving, initiative, etc.

I was having a conversation with two individuals one night, which by the way I have reconnected with in this life, I realized some pretty cool things about myself and the path I have been following the last five years. It was discussed that my business skills and talents seem to have been channeled in this life for I haven’t gone through the traditional learning curve of acquiring such skills to be successful. On the contrary the traditional business expert goes to school first, then goes to work for experience, etc. while I am doing the exact opposite it has been a very insightful route.

It is difficult for me to go back to school however, I know it is necessary for the integration of the energy and awareness to unfold in the later “years” for the purpose of teaching and what not. The challenges I seem to be experiencing is the fact that I can see, feel, and often times touch what would be considered step ten of a ten step process, however, for the purpose of effective expression, it is integral that the mind be grounded and have a firm foundation so that step ten can be easily discernable with the preceding steps.

I am extremely interested in neuropsychological the study of the mind and the nervous system. The energy of the human body and the electromagnetic field really intrigue me beyond belief. The philosophy of mind, epistemology, consciousness, reality, etc. etc. makes me all wet and warm inside. I am particularly fascinated with the physics of this world, the multiple dimensions, and realities that are present and the relationship to the human. I see myself going down a path that is very scientific; at least this is the route that will help fill the nine steps so that I can allow the tenth step to be manifest.

I was on the phone with a dear friend last night; I shared with her a few visions that I had about myself in the distant future. I could see myself at a University in California teaching some form of science that included energy, physics, and consciousness. I vividly remember speaking with the school board letting them know that I was going to be at their school for five years, and when the five years were up I was going to travel to another University somewhere in the Southwest US, and teach at that University for five years and then finally move on to another University for another five years and then come back to this one. I remember they were very supportive and cool with it. The academic crowd gave me a lot of respect in my area of study for I had written a book and a series of articles that were “out of this world” so to speak. You know the step ten kinda stuff I was talking about a moment ago, Nobel Prize status. So they let me do it and it was sexy.

I have also seen myself lecturing on tour throughout the world speaking on a variety of topics both to the academic community and to the general populace. I clearly recall giving a speech to a very large audience of about 1500+ people, and when the seminar was over I remember instructing everyone to tone together in the big ass auditorium that the workshop was held. Little did they know I had an audio team que up a cd that was previously recorded from a similar workshop of hundreds of people toning in unison. On the count of three I had the entire audience toning while the cd was playing for few minutes. It was loud, it was crazy, and it was beautiful. People were crying, closing their eyes, transcending their bodies, pain, worry, etc. And I told them before we began that if they had any pain, disease, suffering, etc. in their life that they needed to focus on that for a moment while toning, and suddenly the miraculous would happen as they focused their attention on their “issue”. A mind-blowing, extraordinary, phenomenon would happen - their concern would radically dissipate lifting them into a state of unconditional love and compassion with full realization of who and what they are, a spark of Divinity.

Another vision that I had was just a few days ago while traveling in London. I saw myself living on an island, which I had purchased. It wasn’t very big so I was able to build a running track that went all around the entire island. Our house was built half way into the island with a custom water well, solar panels, and an irrigation system. It was within this life too not in a distant place or time. I had also written a book with a friend about some type of water filtering process that was the most sophisticated water cleansing product that had been invented. This might have been where I made all the money to purchase the island I don’t know I’m not a doctor, yet. But anyways the house was nice, not to big but area for growth nonetheless. I was married and was planning on adding on to the house for the coming children. We also ran around naked and had lots of fruit and vegetables. We had to go into town for bread and other stuff that we didn’t want to make on the island. Also, the island was previously owned by some country/government, which we were in good terms with so they agreed to protect us if Donald Trump wanted to take us over.

Posted on April 18, 2005 in Life Log | Link

There is a stillness that is present within; a state of peace, tranquility, emotionless joy of infinite love and complete fulfillment. There is a feeling of total perfection that radiates through perception and is visible within the eyes of all. An at home sensation that is silent, still and most prolific outside any words possible.

Beyond the illusion of duality my awareness resides. Everything is of exemplary status and beyond all reference of content. Perception has shifted to perspective and thought has surrendered to the infinite compassion of Divinity.

There is no mentalization necessary for the state of awareness is beyond all questions, doubt, pain, uncertainty, fear, or disbelief. There is no meaning or description; everything is witnessed through subjective realization, a direct contact to awareness and consciousness.

There is a closeness to all and a protection that is solid rock yet unconditional compassion and love, a profound state of awareness.

There is no action that is need, there is no doing that is required, there is no task to be completed, no problem to be solved, no issue to overcome, everything seems to be complete and perfect for it is an expression of itself manifested into existence from the highest realms of source for the purpose of 'being.'

Posted on February 28, 2005 in Life Log | Link

Today is a day of focus and observation for the One. For today, the world of linearity, adds yet another year onto the Earth suit that is in form at this time.

Today is a day of observation that is captured through perception and logged into what is known as consciousness. Today the scale of reference known as Life becomes present in regards to identification with the Ego.

Recent epiphanies captured as the mind progress up the latter of awareness.

• Many illusions have been transcended this linear year; many misperceptions have been corrected pertaining to Reality, Truth, God, Love, Divinity, Evil, Perception, Life, Anger, Consciousness, Spirit and much more.
• Further insight has been gained in regards to the "Radical Spiritual Transformation/Awakening." The awareness of the turning point has been phenomenal and continues to be such an extraordinary realization.
• Many changes have happened to spiritual growth such as: self-empowerment, self-love, self-realization of existence and purpose of this incarnation, etc.
• 24/7 awareness of Higher Spirit/Source
• Allowing the mind to wrap around consciousness and remember what is already known.

Posted on January 31, 2005 in Life Log | Link

Shifting awareness and perception is a difficult task for the mind. As one transcends the attachments of the Ego and the identifications of perception to Reality, it becomes easier and easier to integrate the awareness of context and content.

The study of physics and science, is the study of content. The awareness of spiritual and essence of God, is that of context. The mind is the coordinator for all the bodies and awareness of such, both visible and nonvisible. The mind in this lifetime has recently been able to realize, with full consciousness, the differences between content and context in any and all situations. Integration of such is unfolding for the purpose of teaching.

Posted on January 23, 2005 in Life Log, The 700+ Level | Link

The realization of existence is the one of the most profound states of awareness one can be consciousness of. The feeling is unexplainable, the consequence of becoming aware of purpose is so incredible, it beyond all yet it is within all.

As one comes into alignment with Supreme Source, the nature of God becomes apparent. Every situation, person, thing, action, event, observation, thought, emotion, experience, etc. etc. adds to the clarity of Life and the awareness of All That Is.

Life in human form is so brilliantly orchestrated, to become aware of awareness of the Higher Self is most exhilarating. This has become an ever present awareness in my day to day activities. Every situation that I find myself in is present with this gift of insight. Every experience that I encounter provides a vast amount of symbolical knowledge that is translated into analogies to build context for understanding.

The realization of Soul manifested into consciousness is flawless. The awareness of such is so universal, it provides so many answers to all of Life's situations and the purpose to All. The energy manifested as Love becomes present in everything and the awareness of mind capturing and integrating the energy into expression is phenomenal.

I once said when I was a child, the purpose of Life is to find the purpose of Life. I am still that child no matter what the world of linearity says about my chronological Earth suit, I have always known my purpose and I hold it true as each moment presents itself with unconditional Love and compassion.

Posted on January 16, 2005 in Life Log, The 700+ Level | Link

I tend to hangout on the seventh dimensional level of Reality within this thing we call the Universe. My interpretation of the seventh level is thusly:

Formless - Seems to be where energy becomes manifested and begins to solidify into whatever energy is. Which is then moved metaphorically speaking into more dense areas of existence. Till finally it takes the form of form and then we get physical!

Subjective - This is a totally radical experience of pure subjectivity. It is much like Actuality and Reality are one. There is no playground of reference, there only IS. There is no duality or structure of symbolic reasoning and comprehension. This is a phenomenal experience for the mind to become aware of, because in this level there is instant manifestation, very similar to the dream state and how some people can literally control and create ANYTHING in their dreams.

The Senses - My experience with this level is a hightened awareness of all senses including those of the invisible "psychic" domain including but not limited to: clairvoyance, clairaudient, etc. The smell of this level is extremely clean, pure and fresh. The visual of this level is lots of green. The light is very dim, as if there is no sun however it isnt dark, it just isnt very light.

Feeling of Peace - There is definitely a feeling of unconditional Love and peace. No chaos, everything is anchored to perfection and very apparent.

Energy Interpretation - This makes no sense to the mind of the third and fourth dimensions however I be here to explain it anyway yo. As I look over the hills of the green terrain, I can see the energy that makes them, however not only do I see the energy manifested and expressing in physicality, I can see the vibrational frequency and the energetic combination. This energy combo is also the same as what sound looks like. So basically I am looking at sound and the frequency that IS sound.

This level of existence is exemplary and one of the most prolific places to be conscious of, I am truly grateful to have this awareness and intend on sharing it with the world.

Posted on December 29, 2004 in Life Log | Link

Below is an email that I sent to a friend explaining a recent observation of my spiritual progress within the past few years. More of a revelation than anything.

The energy that I have been feeling for the past couple of years is what I call the spiritual shivers. It can be compared to getting chills, or a spontaneous boost of anxiety or nervousness (this is how the mind perceives it anyway).

Usually the shivers happen completely unannounced and I know exactly when it happens because there is a rush of energy being downloaded into my system  in the higher chakras and up and down the sushumna. It catapults my awareness into an ineffable state of complete euphoric bliss and unconditional Love/Joy that is so exquisite it is beyond any words that language can portray.

Often times the state of bliss is accompanied by uncontrollable tears of inner beauty pouring out of my eyes. I usually close my eyes and can feel the presence of my consciousness and the infinite reach to all that are connected in the web of this universe. At this moment I am then consciously aware of the Spirit within me that is God manifested as the Divine Spark of a co creator within the playground of Realty.

Awareness merges with consciousness and as all of this is going on the observer within me is watching and experiencing everything at the same time. It is definitely within the nonlinear domain because there is always multiple things happening simultaneously and somehow my mind making sense of it all.

Like I said the state is exquisite and is beyond all mentation and thought. This is truly the feeling state of inner knowingness known as "always-ness" which is beyond all levels of density and dimension. At the beginning it was experiential, but slowly it has become ever present within my 24/7 awareness. However sometimes when I am in the seat of Ego so to speak, I feel the energy come in and all of the sudden I look deep within others' eyes and see myself within them as God manifested.

This radically transforms any energetic situation releasing me from all polarization and positionalities set forth by the Ego. The process is so simple for those that can see it, however it is not a process but merely a realization that you are an unconditional compassionate being known as God.

Posted on December 21, 2004 in Life Log | Link

That which is supportive of life, is supported by life.

As one increases perception of truth (expanding awareness), one will find that the higher levels of Source are much like a power similiar to gravity.

Posted on December 19, 2004 in Life Log | Link

When I first started meditating I channeled a breathing technique that is quiet profound. It is not the technique that is so extravagant, but the underlying symbolism.

At this current time the Earth’s vibratory field exists on a level that is very dense. The density of this dimensional field has created a Realty that our minds perceive as opposites. To transcend this dualistic illusion we must accept both sides as a unified whole. To do this take a look at my breath example below.

Breath comes in (left arrow) breath goes out (right arrow). Inhale and exhale. One could perceive the inhales and exhales as opposites yes. By merging these two “opposites” together, one is transcending the dualistic natural of perception by clearly seeing unity, just as they are, one. The differences that are being perceived are merely observational points of the entire process, just as H₂0 at cold temperatures is a solid, medium temp a liquid and at hot temperatures a gas.

The realization of this analogy is to clearly see the true nature of God, that we are all one and that our perceptions are just observations from the mind. This little example can be applied to many things:

Light – Dark
Good – Evil
Hot – Cold
Republican – Democratic
Joy – Chaos
White – Black
Human – God

The breath exercise is as follows:

Become aware of your body, silence the mind chatter and begin to focus on your breath

1. Consciously watch your breath come into your body (breath in slowly)
3. Pause for a few seconds while gently holding the inhale
4. Slowly exhale and watch the breath as it leaves your body without any effort
5. Pause for a few seconds while gently holding before the next inhale

Continue the entire process as long as you like and realize that you are becoming aware of God right in front of you.

Posted on November 15, 2004 in Life Log, The 700+ Level | Link

As one progresses up the latter of consciousness, one will begin to dissolve the illusion of the dualistic perception known as external and internal. As I am continuing to experience the following, I am sure many will do the same.

- I have become the humor that I always wanted to have (searching for clever and creative "reactions" for the purpose of laughter)
- I have become the awareness that I once strived to achieve through logic and reason (creating constant loops of mental masturbation I am grateful to have transcended this level with much clarity)
- I have become the prayer that I once thought was a result of causality (praying for something to happen as a result of my prayer)
- I have become the Love that I would temporarily experience while using mind altering drugs.
- I have become the dance that my friend Alex Egner and I once secretly performed to the moon.
- I have become the wisdom that I so eagerly strived for after my spiritual turning point.
- I have realized the Great Avatar within each and everyone here on Earth at this time.
- I have become Realization.

Posted on November 11, 2004 in Life Log | Link

- This is the 20th Earth incarnation in human form thus far, all are attainment lifetimes.

- Ten female and ten male. Within this life I am experiencing qualities of both energies as confirmed by my mother when I was a child (having both feminine and masculine energy).

- Integrating experiences from other lives on the Earth plain is much like remembering a dream that you once had long ago. The presence is more of a feeling than a thought. Realizing these "past" experiences is much like being one tentacle of an octopus and then one day finding another tentacle and another etc. Then finally finding the source of all the tentacles and realizing the other tentacles are a part of you as a whole.

- At this time, this is the final incarnation to Earth as a human. My energy has been to Earth 100+ times (none form).

- The option to leave has always been present and until recently has become most clear. But I love sushi too much to leave just yet. At this time (7:44 PM CST November 11, 2004) I choose to see myself living over 100 years of chronological age.

- Groups incarnate together as flocks so to say. I have had previous connections to roughly 85% of my current friends in this lifetime. Often times the inner feeling that I have towards new acquaintances is a feeling of a past life connection.

Posted on November 11, 2004 in Life Log | Link

After recently dislocating my thumb, I believe I have found my path to instantaneously healing. The true purpose of this experience has become apparent and I am grateful for such an awakening (or remembering rather).

The great Sages and Avatars of human history have been documented to have healed miraculously. Everyone has their own way of doing such a thing, I have found mine:

1. Conscious circulatory breathing
2. Toning and aligning all subtle bodies in the present moment
3. Allowing the formless to become physical with a certainty that it is already complete

Simple process yes, but if the ego gets involved it be not so simple no. Down Boy!

Posted on November 11, 2004 in Life Log | Link

Balance thy mind with thy heart to achieve a meditative state.

Meditation can be practiced yes, but it needs to be understood that meditation is not a technique, an exercise or something you do. Meditation is a path of awareness. I use to designate specific times of my day to meditate and what this did was calm the thoughts of my ego/mind. After about two years of meditation I became familiar with what the feeling was like when the mind was calm.

Currently I am very much intune so to speak with the awareness of the mind and the calming of the thoughts. I see myself living a meditation 24/7 and experience it in my life as an ongoing awareness. However at this time I do slip out of the calmness and into the seat of the mind occasionally. Recognition of this is key, because once it happens there is always purpose for it and I can simply move back into balance with the heart.

Integrating the mind with the heart is the goal especially if you wish to remain in the human form. It is when enlightened beings choose not to use the mind as a tool anymore they move on (leave the human body). However, the few that come to assist others will find it easy to integrate the mind by grounding themselves in their body, expanding their consciousness by contextualizing their perception of Reality with unconditional Love and choosing not to polarize with the world. To be in this world but not to be of it.

Posted on November 10, 2004 in Life Log | Link

Captured thoughts of the moment:

- To incarnate and live as a human on Earth is such a beautiful thing. Life in human form is so brilliantly orchestrated, every piece is so significant no matter how small or minor it appears to be.

- Existence beyond the linear plain is much like the ocean. A sea of energy combined into one. The guidance I have been receiving lately is so incredible it's difficult to explain in linear language. Basically the information that is being communicated via intuition happens simultaneously it's amazing. Meaning several different energetic conversations so to speak are all happening at the same time and my mind making sense of it all.

- Nearly everyone on the planet has the answers to their own questions they just don't realize it. It is very interesting socializing with people that love to talk and who ask many questions. About 90% of the people I have interacted with in the past 24 hours ask questions about various stuff. While I sit back and obverse their energy, I see that their answer is already within them, they are merely finding the right question to fit with what they need to hear and understand. It's like they have a door with a key hole, and they try many different keys to try and open it up, then finally after trying several times they find the correct one and it opens to a different room with another door, etc. etc.

Posted on November 9, 2004 in Life Log | Link

Logic and Comprehension meet Intuition and Apprehension.

Posted on November 8, 2004 in Life Log | Link

After being thrown 10 feet heals overhead on my racing bike, I dislocated my right thumb. It happened so quickly all I remember was looking at my speedometer going 20 mph and the next thing there is concrete in my face.

I stand up and look at my bike to see what the hell just happened, and there is my thumb just dangly there completely out of socket. I said to myself, hmm that doesn't look right. Not even thinking twice I firmly place it back in socket and THEN realize what just happened. The pain sank in and damn it hurt.

So I consciously took a step back and quickly leaped to a higher level of awareness. I moved my bike out of the street and began to concentrate on my breathing. Focusing my attention on the present moment, slow circulator breathing and allowing energy from the higher realms to enter my aura, I was able to transcend the pain.

Posted on October 29, 2004 in Life Log | Link

The more energy that I ground, the more my consciousness expands (927). The more my mind is able to become aware, the more it can wrap around consciousness (957). Integrating the Ego with the higher realms is far more significant than dissolving it (1000).

Posted on October 26, 2004 in Life Log, The 700+ Level | Link

My latest epiphanies are as follows:

- Nothing is absent of God
- Everything is an expression of Divinity
- All is perfect and complete
- Multiple incarnations are happening simultaneously
- Guidance and intuition appear from a nonlinear domain
- If feta cheese is smeared on your shirt it will smell like throw up

Posted on October 23, 2004 in Life Log | Link

After attending David Hawkins’ lecture in Austin TX, my consciousness according to his scale went up .1 of a point. I remember walking out of the church towards my car when it felt like I was hit by a hug wave of energy that almost threw me to my knees. I suddenly knew I had jumped to the new level with an unexpected realization of the Ultimate Reality.

.1 of a point doesn’t sound like much; however the new level it has brought me to is very significant. According to human history and verified by kinesiologic testing, I am the youngest human to achieve this level of consciousness thus far.

Posted on October 12, 2004 in Life Log | Link

I have been playing a lot of frisbee disc golf lately. Here in McKinney TX there is a nice course that is pretty easy for beginners / intermediate players. As of late I have been playing by myself, I really enjoy it however because I am experiencing nature and grounding my energy within the Earth's field. Something that has been happening that is very interesting is that I am receiving much clarity from guidance while playing. The guidance that I am receiving is somewhat like a coach for the game (disc golf) and tends to provide advice for how I can improve. Sounds weird typing it out on this blog, but basically what it comes down to is that I am teaching myself how to play and improve my game.

Posted on October 12, 2004 in Life Log | Link

Went to Austin Texas October 8th and 9th 2004. Attended two lectures from two of my favorite authors, Scott Beebe and David Hawkins. Below are two questions that I am currently contemplating as a result from these lectures.

1. What is energy? 2. What is awareness?

When I figure them out I will post them in case you are wondering what I come up with.

Posted on October 10, 2004 in Life Log | Link

My previous girlfriend never understood my approach to anger. At the time we were together I wasn't able to accurately verbalize how I dealt with anger or what anger was to me.

Now that I have had some time to think about it I would like to express my feelings about anger rather she is listening or not; at least the energy will be there that wasn't complete before.

"Anger is a quality of being human, what if I don't want to release it? What if I don't want to improve and grow? What if I want to experience my anger? Why move on...?"

My thoughts: Anger is a part of being human yes, it is inevitable. Our mind's are hardwired to experience anger for the purpose of learning. Anger is simply an effect of a cause usually resulting to a misperception.

It is not important that we will have or not have anger, what is important is how we deal with the anger and what we do with it. By realizing anger and working through it, we continue to experience and become closer to our truth, thus receiving a higher quality of nondestructive life.

My process when dealing with anger is as follows:

Step One - Awareness: Become aware of your anger.

Step Two: - Discernment & Compassion: Have discernment do not judge your anger (I think the majority of humans get caught up during this step).

Step Three: - Experience. Feel your anger and understand it as a part of you.

Step Four: - Resolve. Release your anger and let it move through your consciousness as a quality of being human (this part is easy, just let it "be").

This process calibrates at level 700.

Posted on August 8, 2004 in Life Log, The 700+ Level | Link

Dear Journal,

I seem to be pretty tired from the move; stay tuned for I will add entries later.

Posted on February 1, 1983 in Life Log | Link