“I had a life changing experience in September of 2002 where my world that I lived in was radically transformed. All beliefs, ethics, values and principles were completely surrendered within a split second’s time. The person that I ‘was’ and had aspired to be was no more. The ‘me’ of who I was, had instantly died, yet there still remained life, a body, and most exquisite, observation of awareness.

Little did my mind know what had happened, yet at an intuitive level I knew this was my path and that this ineffable experience had purpose nevertheless the mind could not understand or comprehend it, just yet. I questioned the experience for years, ‘How can someone experience a total surrender or death so to speak while consciously observing it take place beyond perception?’”

So what happened? Detachment. Within a split second’s time the “me” had died and an energetic rebirth/revelation occurred. After spending years of questioning the experience, seeking answers and thousands of dollars in therapy, I successfully recontextualized the mind’s perception of Reality. By integrating guidance from Source and past experiences, I quickly shifted the attachment that perception has on content to a broader perspective of context, which resulted in self-realization of existence, in the all-present moment.

The realization was an omnipotent, supreme knowingness beyond question, beyond the mind. Soon answers started coming to my plethora of questions. One of the most significant was that of purpose: purpose of the experience, purpose of life, purpose of the realization, etc. I found there were answers in places that I had not looked before and there were now sounds where silence was always prevalent.

Soon after the experience, meditation became common in my day-to-day life, which consequently assisted in the releasing of all positionalities set forth by the previous “me.”

This experience kick started a new life yet the old life is still present. I am sure the medical community would have a heyday examining my brain waves relating to this experience, I am sure they would also find the neurons are quite active, yet in theta mode nonetheless.

More to come as this mind continues to integrate awareness and consciousness regarding this experience. Peace!

Posted on June 2, 2005 in The Turning Point | Link

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