So I was convincing my therapist the other day I wasn't crazy and while she was talking to me I interrupted her and said, "wait wait shhhhhh!!! (two second pause) the voices in my head are snoring."

Posted on June 29, 2005 in Purely Hypothetical | Link | shhhh_they_are.mp3

The spiritual awareness that is present within this body does not reside within a specific belief structure or configuration (hamster ball). The mind may have certain propensities that have been somewhat conditioned to environmental responses, nevertheless there is no attachment to such content. The awareness of God that is present encompasses all religions and integrates qualities of each as an expression from Source.

Translation please. Hey no problem.

Okay here is the deal. There is this ocean right? Lets call this ocean an energetic body called God. Within this ocean imagine 1,000 hamster balls floating on top. Each hamster ball, because of the holes, is filled up with water but they are still able to float. Okay now imagine that in each hamster ball you got people living inside, some of the balls have thousands, some have millions and billions.

Each hamster ball has their own way of interpreting the water that is inside their ball; each having their own set of values, principles, rules, stories, important leaders, etc. etc. And while each peoples in the hamster balls are so confident that their ball and their belief structures are correct, little do they recognize that this water that is present within their ball, is also present within all the other hamster balls.

So in actuality, the water that is present within the Hindu hamster ball is the exact same water that is present with the Jewish hamster ball, the key difference is the interpretation of the water resulting from a belief structure, which attempts to guide each individual’s perception thus resulting in a governing body of common ideologies. The challenge with this is the awareness of unity is masked and an illusion of separation becomes prevalent.

What the hell? Translate that last paragraph please. Hey no problem.

Each hamster ball has its own set of beliefs. The beliefs are merely a focus of observation (observing the water). If I put you in a room with no windows and no lights, you will see the room quiet differently than if I put you into a room with tons of lights, mirrors, quick sand, and a pogo stick right? Well each hamster ball is just the same, they are merely interpreting the same water as all the other hamster balls just with a different set of guidelines; no one is right, no one is wrong, each hamster ball is merely a different area of focus.

The spiritual awareness that is present within this body does not reside within one hamster ball, but is one with the water that is present within all hamster balls.

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Posted on June 21, 2005 in Q & A's | Link | what_religion_a.mp3

"Yes, of course, manifestation is a contradiction and a paradox. ...if you were so completely one with your spirit that you could instantly manifest anything at all in the world, then you would have no desires to manifest because you would be one with all that is, and the perfection of its oneness would be abundantly clear." - Quado

Couldn't of said it better myself, this dude rules. Sometimes it takes me forever to allow the mind to come around the expression of energy and to translate it into form (thought) so it can be contemplated, then all of the sudden guidance shows me the short cut and shows that there are many that have already walked this path, a popular one is called Jesus.

Posted on June 20, 2005 in Quotes | Link | manifestation_a.mp3

As mentioned earlier, the "turning point" provided an innate awareness of self-existence in the present moment that, according to the Buddha's, can take many many lifetimes to achieve (note: most Eastern religions believe Enlightenment takes many lifetimes to achieve - ohh the irony in "achieving" Enlightenment). Well ladies and gentlemen, dogs and cats, this awareness became radically present within a split second (note to self [ego] calibrate the exact time it took for the transformation to occur). For those that are on the longer path to self-realization, the following are helpful keys that will allow the transformation to quickly become present:

- Nonjudgement
- Nonpolarization
- A snorkel
- Unconditional Love & Compassion
- A pair of camouflage socks (or the rainbow socks with the individual toes)
- Three pieces of peperjack cheese (firejack is okay too)

Ohh yeah and never, ever, under any circumstances, eat the yellow snow, it is the devil (ahaha).

Posted on June 19, 2005 in The Turning Point | Link | keys_to_enlight.mp3

This morning I woke up at 5:00 AM CST. It was dark outside but boy did I have to pee. I had to pee like no other I could taste it. So I got up and went to the restroom and by the time I had come back to my room I wasn't tired. I debated on whether I should just stay awake and get my day started or if I should attempt to go back to sleep for another couple of hours. I decided to sleep.

When I entered the dream world, I dreamt that I hadn't gone back to sleep and instead stayed awake and got ready for my day (crazy huh?). So I got ready for my day and the next thing I know I was stuck in traffic heading into the city. I remember so vividly the cars around me and my maneuvering capabilities and changing lanes, etc. Then I woke up a few minutes before my alarm at 7:10 and was surprised I had fallen asleep and that my dream wasn't real. Lucid dreaming can be as wild as sex I tell you.

Posted on June 8, 2005 in Dream Log | Link | i_had_to_pee.mp3

“I had a life changing experience in September of 2002 where my world that I lived in was radically transformed. All beliefs, ethics, values and principles were completely surrendered within a split second’s time. The person that I ‘was’ and had aspired to be was no more. The ‘me’ of who I was, had instantly died, yet there still remained life, a body, and most exquisite, observation of awareness.

Little did my mind know what had happened, yet at an intuitive level I knew this was my path and that this ineffable experience had purpose nevertheless the mind could not understand or comprehend it, just yet. I questioned the experience for years, ‘How can someone experience a total surrender or death so to speak while consciously observing it take place beyond perception?’”

So what happened? Detachment. Within a split second’s time the “me” had died and an energetic rebirth/revelation occurred. After spending years of questioning the experience, seeking answers and thousands of dollars in therapy, I successfully recontextualized the mind’s perception of Reality. By integrating guidance from Source and past experiences, I quickly shifted the attachment that perception has on content to a broader perspective of context, which resulted in self-realization of existence, in the all-present moment.

The realization was an omnipotent, supreme knowingness beyond question, beyond the mind. Soon answers started coming to my plethora of questions. One of the most significant was that of purpose: purpose of the experience, purpose of life, purpose of the realization, etc. I found there were answers in places that I had not looked before and there were now sounds where silence was always prevalent.

Soon after the experience, meditation became common in my day-to-day life, which consequently assisted in the releasing of all positionalities set forth by the previous “me.”

This experience kick started a new life yet the old life is still present. I am sure the medical community would have a heyday examining my brain waves relating to this experience, I am sure they would also find the neurons are quite active, yet in theta mode nonetheless.

More to come as this mind continues to integrate awareness and consciousness regarding this experience. Peace!

Posted on June 2, 2005 in The Turning Point | Link | selfrealization.mp3