Below is an email that I sent to a friend explaining a recent observation of my spiritual progress within the past few years. More of a revelation than anything.

The energy that I have been feeling for the past couple of years is what I call the spiritual shivers. It can be compared to getting chills, or a spontaneous boost of anxiety or nervousness (this is how the mind perceives it anyway).

Usually the shivers happen completely unannounced and I know exactly when it happens because there is a rush of energy being downloaded into my system  in the higher chakras and up and down the sushumna. It catapults my awareness into an ineffable state of complete euphoric bliss and unconditional Love/Joy that is so exquisite it is beyond any words that language can portray.

Often times the state of bliss is accompanied by uncontrollable tears of inner beauty pouring out of my eyes. I usually close my eyes and can feel the presence of my consciousness and the infinite reach to all that are connected in the web of this universe. At this moment I am then consciously aware of the Spirit within me that is God manifested as the Divine Spark of a co creator within the playground of Realty.

Awareness merges with consciousness and as all of this is going on the observer within me is watching and experiencing everything at the same time. It is definitely within the nonlinear domain because there is always multiple things happening simultaneously and somehow my mind making sense of it all.

Like I said the state is exquisite and is beyond all mentation and thought. This is truly the feeling state of inner knowingness known as "always-ness" which is beyond all levels of density and dimension. At the beginning it was experiential, but slowly it has become ever present within my 24/7 awareness. However sometimes when I am in the seat of Ego so to speak, I feel the energy come in and all of the sudden I look deep within others' eyes and see myself within them as God manifested.

This radically transforms any energetic situation releasing me from all polarization and positionalities set forth by the Ego. The process is so simple for those that can see it, however it is not a process but merely a realization that you are an unconditional compassionate being known as God.

Posted on December 21, 2004 in Life Log | Link